I think you are about to further lower your self esteem. Please, believe all of us women who have allowed ourselves to be used for that purpose. You will feel worse, not better. Just because everyone else seems to "have someone", that does not mean they are in healthy, happy relationships. You shouldn't feel left out because you haven't done what everyone else is doing. You are still pure and clean. Your adult life is just beginning and you have endless possibilities. I've seen your picture and you are far from ugly. Besides, looks don't mean all that much. Of course one is at first attracted by looks, but to have a real harmonious relationship you need to have many things that have nothing to do with looks. I promise you will find one special guy one day. I know you don't believe me now, but please don't rush into anything you will regret