Agree with the above comment. Writing in my journal helps me feel somewhat connected to my therapist, and lessens the need to actually contact her. Don't get me wrong, I still always crack and end up doing it anyway, but I am able to limit it to once a week, and sometimes I can avoid it altogether.
I understand how you feel, as I always feel awful about it after sending the email. She never seems annoyed about it, but I still feel bad for doing it, and I want to stop. It is very hard, though. But I agree with ruh roh; I think she is talking about something that would feel okay to
you. Try not to worry too much about it. I am not trying to make it sound easy, because it definitely isn't! But just… try to find something that can help you take your mind off it for a while.