i give him so much support as much as i can without making him feel like he's got something wrong with him, because i know he thinks his parents think that which is sad.
he is on citalopam but wants to double his dosage as he feels the meds arent working but he's worried and so am i that he will become reliant on them to be feel any kind of happiness, but as he is now back at work and riding it very hard and stressful it seems he needs to do something or he might end up having a break down at work. he is also on a waiting list for a psychiatrist as he had a few really bad spells where he wanted to book flights to the other side of the world to run away etc. and went into these weird bubbles were he couldn't speak to anyone and would say really odd things to me and not remember saying them after. he has terrible nightmares most nights and they are all about the same thing, his last relationship and how it ended. he says he feels the pain of losing someone he loves along with guilt etc.it seems to be one of the main problems and he is always looking for answers as to why it revolves around this one thing by looking on his ex girlfriends Facebook when he feels down. i don't know if its because he's in love with her and regrets ending it or if he feels guilty because his illness caused the relationship to fail. he says she was controlling and shouted at him all the time and ended up pushing him to break up with her because neither of them new at the time he was ill. n general he just feels emotionless and says he feels incapable of loving anyone and says he sometimes he feels nothing when cuddles his own mother, which as he is her only sone she is very upset by.
i feel like I'm in a relationship with him and his ex because she seems to be the route of most problems and quite often it makes me feel like I'm just here to help him get over her.