Back from being out of town, and I feel like it was a nice break but it just made me wish I could move already... I know the next few months will go by quickly, but probably not quite fast enough. I'm getting married in 2 months, and have that to look forward to... but I'm worried about money again because I need to find a good job as soon as I can to pay for the rest of the wedding stuff, moving, and a new car and better place to live after I move. All I can do is keep applying to jobs and wait, and I hate waiting... I wish there was something more I could do. I don't like feeling like I have no control over what happens in my life...