PlumpPrincess, it is better to live walking in faith than live walking in fear. Fear is not an environment to raise children in, for they may turn that fear into hatred because of it. I do believe that you will make it, one day at a time. Just keep asking for help for it is the sqeeky wheel that gets heard. Call every social organization you know of for help, for paid training to get a job, for food stamps, for heating assistance, for everything. And don't feel ashamed because you must do what you have to for your two children. I will pray for you for the strength to keep moving forward in faith. blessings