Raspberry,
You wrote "whats that" to stability? lol That's why I brought this up. I was at my shrink's the other day and she said "Let's aim for stability" and I grabbed a pen and had to write the word down...like a light bulb went off and realized that was the missing link. Wow. That's scary. Outside worls must have seen it all these years. I somehow manage to stay above water, just above water, I was sinking rapidly. But that can't go on anymore. TIme for some better floating devices and more oxygen.

Thanks for your honesty and hang n there