Ever since my depression in September I just gained numbness and self loathing. My interests in things that I liked completely shattered. Like why can't I just be 'normal' for once. After 4 days recently of not taking meds my sleep cycle was thrown out of the window and my anxiety risen. It's far too difficult to be off meds but I'm back on them again now. Heck who wants to be 'normal' these days. I can feel my mind racing again and I feel out of control....I was pacing so much I purged and vomited. The lack of meds made me feel so I'll. My gut instinct was telling me to come back to this site but I don't know why...maybe it's a sign?