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Old Jan 10, 2016, 06:54 PM
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Originally Posted by intergalactictraveler View Post
Alone & confused,

As you've read, you're not truly alone. I'm in a marriage that was never good and my wife, who has an undiagnosed mood problem, along with alcohol addiction and sexual hang ups, has been barely supportive and understanding. And I've lost two of my closest friends; one to a heart attack and one who has cut all ties to family and friends due to mental illness. I feel quite alone most of the time. Living in my crowded, sleep deprived brain isn't what I call living but as difficult as my life is, I'm going to hold onto the sucker. I've written it before: Dead is forever. I'd rather be, metaphorically speaking, bloodied, bruised and alive from the pounding that I take from bipolar illness.
Thanks! My "boyfriend", if you can call him that, is less than clueless about what this is like for me. I don't feel as though we have any real connection at all on an emotional level. I feel as though I barely know him either. I've always been conveniently excluded from spending time with him and his family and friends. Somehow he makes this MY FAULT for not going, but I can tell I'm not really welcomed by him. And He uses my depression as an excuse saying that I "just don't WANT to do anything"! Like I made this decision to be completely miserable!
I'm sorry your relationship is bad too!