Hey guys. So some of you may already know the situation from my last few posts but in the most recent post, I emailed my T saying that I didn't want to go in last week but T told me that it was better if I did. Later on I started feeling sick so I emailed again and cancelled and now I have a session tomorrow. It's been almost a month since I last went and I'm sort of nervous. I'm worried about the questions T will ask about why I've been cancelling lately or not wanting to come in. There has been so much going on in my mind over the past few months that I'm nervous to talk about (T knows that I dont want to talk about it but said that we have to figure out a way to). I'm having a really hard time sleeping and I keep having mini panic attacks and need to either walk around my house or get some water to calm down. Anything will help.

Thanks