Hi,
I was wondering what your experiences are concerning your manic episodes and low self esteem. I know there is typically an elevation of mood and self esteem with mania; however what if your hurts go so deep that self sabatoging behaviors and attitudes still come out..even in mania. Does this make sense to anyone?
I used to binge drink..sometimes to the point I could have killed myself. I used to cut and say bad things about myself..I'd hate myself when I looked in the mirror and this was even in times of mania where I generally felt more happy, restless and irritable..