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Originally Posted by lucidity11
I can have a glass of wine or a beer and be done with it. This part is younger, maybe in the teens. The other day he/she wanted to have a glass of wine. All day he/she was thinking about getting home and having wine with dinner. When we got home, I walked past the refrigerator and suddenly he/she opened the door grabbed the wine bottle and drank out of it. I haven't drank out of a wine bottle since I was in my teens. The desire was deep and driven. Without a thought he/she opened the refridgator and drank the wine. That feeling of desire and control frighten me. It is a feeling I would sometimes have regarding sex. (years ago). This feeling of needing to have the drink that moment and acting on it. We talked among-est ourselves stating how disturbing that action was and how we don't want to be out of control. It was a feeling I thought I had resolved. I actually avoid dating because I am concerned that sex would set off this feeling. If we are all better off not drinking, doing drugs and having indiscriminate sex than why can this part understand that? Why try to pull us back into the dark.
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Not every part is a good one and not every part will be there to protect you. Same issue, different theme with Noah. He would do everything just to make sure Scar will be in pain, therefore we will all be in pain. For the longest time ever (well about 2 years but it didn't feel like that) we've struggled with keeping Noah away from Scar. We tried so hard but each time he would slip and do something bad. Try to find a part that is willing to talk with him/her. Maybe a stronger or an older part will do. Maybe a little, who knows. If that doesn't work tell your strongest part to keep him/her away as much as possible. Block their way. It might sound hard at first but if a 6 year old could do it, everyone can. Hang in there!
-Evee