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Old Jan 10, 2016, 10:27 PM
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Originally Posted by RxQueen875 View Post
This post could go under the depression or anxiety area too but since I'm BP2 I guess I'll put this here. But yea, you've read my title correctly and I'm speechless right now. My bf has some anxiety issues which makes this more surprising to me. He was previously pretty supportive and never held my MI against me. He stuck by me during IP, suicide attempt, detox, crying fits, panic attacks, depression, mania ect. Well I'm not sure how the subject just came up but he said "I think depression and anxiety are people's own faults". I about spit out the food I was eating. I told him to please explain what he means by that. He brought up his ex wife and said "she was on drugs so she got depressed!" I said "or maybe she turned to drugs because she was depressed?!" This just makes me sick because last year I struggled to get sober (from alcohol at least), lost a job because of anxiety, and fell into a deep depression. So are you telling me that the whole time he secretly blamed me?! Who the hell is this man now?! And what does this all mean? Does he see my MI as one big joke? All in my head? Was he secretly resenting me this whole relationship? I feel sick! So I asked him what about his anxiety? He said "yea but I get over it and just do breathing exercises. There's no need for medication". Well good for you. Bravo! I really don't know what this means for our future. I didn't get stable until about two months ago but what if I spiral down again? Is he just going to tell me to ****ing breathe?! I know that I'm going to be BP my whole life. I probably will fall again. I may need another IP. He fell asleep now but trust me this convo is not over. What can I possibly say to make him understand now? I definitely can't hide my MI believe me I try. And I shouldn't have to either. He's lucky he's sound asleep now that's all I have to say.
Uummm......are we dating the same guy?? (Just kidding. Mine doesn't have anxiety issues. ) But seriously, mine pretty much feels the same way. He had unmitigated gall to tell me that the reason I was depressed was because I spent so much time on PC talking to depressed people!!!! OMG I went smooth to Hell off on him over that! Are you kidding me??!! I went from depressed to manic in under a mili second! Anyway, I've been trying for YEARS to get him to understand, short of breaking out the crayons for him to no avail! So if you find a way to get through to yours, please share it with me!
Thanks for this!
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