Hi Moosemarcy. Congratulations on reaching out, finding a therapist, and going to two sessions. That's not easy. You are really taking the initiative on helping yourself heal.

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I let out a lot but I felt no direction from her

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Many therapists do not provide a lot of direction but let the client lead the way and show what they need from therapy. If you need more direction, you could ask.

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Well the whole hour she talked about getting on the internet and joining group or clubs to meet new people to make a new circle or family for me and my husband

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Can you tell her you are not ready for this yet? It's so hard when you are first starting with a therapist. You haven't yet established your working relationship and the give and take. She doesn't know what you need and jumped the gun on her practical approach to finding you clubs to join. Try telling her this is not what you need now.

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she made me feel that talking about my sadness was not what I needed

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You know best what you need. Can you share this feeling with her? Then she has a chance to respond and say "I didn't mean to make you feel that way" or maybe she will indeed agree that was her aim. If she is not interested in helping you process your grief in therapy and this is what you feel you need, then it does sound like she is not the therapist for you. But give her a chance to respond to your thoughts and feelings first and see if you have been interpreting her correctly.

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Isn't a therapist supposed to help you with your feelings and help you get them out to heal?

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Some therapists do this but not all. You could ask her if she sees this as one of her roles. Some therapists are focused on very short term therapy--solve client's problem in 6 sessions or less--so maybe this is why she was rushing to sign you up for clubs and so on. Personally, I wouldn't want my therapy dollars wasted on my therapist looking up stuff for me on the Internet when this could be done on one's own time (unless you wanted her to do this). Therapy is expensive!

Hang in there, Moosemarcy. Therapy is hard and you have done a great deal by getting started. I hope you go back for a third session and voice your concerns. By your T's responses you will know better if you need to seek a different T. Good luck!