((((Biiv)))) it is weird seeing people act so...happy all the time isnt it.....i ended up not getting any rest but ill think about writing the story still....
(((Jinnyann))))) im sorry you had awful dreams...remember its Doc John, im sure he wont do anything inconsiderate with your memories.
((((mybestkids2)))) yes, gentle thoughts are I wonder i appreciate them, good luck on your story
(((purplesecerts)))) thank you, yes youd think we should all be issued a inhaler huh lol....your right, i do deserve time...maybe i should give myself more time instead of rushing into it
((((seeker1950)))) i care, and I hope you take care of yourself and all of these wonderful people here too...good luck
((((sassypants)))) yea, its like you get one moment of bravity and then after a few thoughts, and maybe some sleepless nights you get anxious and want to take it down....it is hard to feel ok when you know your letting yourself be vunerable ....and the possibilty of being judged....

thank you everyone i appreciate it soo much...the support, the love, i really am soo thankful for all such good friends....