Yes I know that. I felt it was implied. I do have low self-esteem and fear criticism to the point of I have a hard time asking for things at work, like time off, because I'm worried about getting ripped. Everytime my wife asks me about something I've done I'm assuming she's about to tell me what I've done wrong. I don't like people because I don't like being criticized & it feels like I am always the brunt of everyone's jokes. It is for these reasons I don't like people and have learned to be content without being around people. At one point in time I did crave close relationships. After years of always being criticized I learned that being alone is better than always being criticized.