I feel so disgusted by the the amount of weight I put on in the last three years. It seems that I finally look as disgusting as I feel. Before I would feel a bit comforted by my parents telling me I look okay. Yet, now they can not even deny how fat I am.

I tried the exercise where you list they things about yourself that you like and could not even write down one thing. I have been on holiday from university and I have left the house a handful of times. I can not remember what it feels like to feel wind on my face. I feel like a monster. I do not know how I will handle having to leave the house to go to campus. I can barely leave my room.

Any advice?

How did it get this bad?!