I'm a trainee at a local store and I'll work there for a few months, but now that I'm outside of the house for the first time in weeks, I realize how severe my situation actually is.
I lose touch with reality the moment I have to socialize and I'm slow with everything.
When I'm given instructions I literally forget about it 10 seconds later and I have to ask so many questions that I'm starting to feel embarassed.
If I make a small mistake I obsess over it for quite some time, which distracts me even more from the work I'm supposed to do.
When I finally feel like I can concentrate on a task I space out completely and after a while I'll "wake up" and realize that I've been given new tasks but I haven't noticed anyone.
It feels like I'm watching a movie with an annoyingly dumb protagonist and I can't do anything about it. It has never been this difficult for me to remember information.
There are so many thoughts/voices/impulses that are distracting me from working that I just want to lock myself in a room and cry.

I'm planning to talk to my therapist about this but I'm not seeing her until friday so I need advice on how to handle this on my own.