Good god, I know how you feel, with the exception of being told in look okay.

I was just looking up opinions about the idea that overweight is a moral failure. The answer is apparently yes if it's caused by sheer overeating - stress and mental illness don't count. So we're failures and bad people. That's motivating.

I don't know how long I've been overeating regularly - it's been at least 3-4 years, but I've been carrying extra weight for about a decade. I hate how out of control I feel, how sick I sometimes make myself because I can't stop eating even though I'm not hungry... and yes, I hate how I look.

I wish I could help. Instead I just know how it feels.