Thanks for all of the support and words of wisdom. I really am considering moving out, although it is clear that if I do separate from living with him, there will be no relationship left. So, if I leave, I leave for good.

This weekend was incredibly frustrating for me. He had a CT scan on Friday that he was very vague about. I don't know a lot about them and he said it was handled, plus my schedule was absolutely jam packed on Friday so I just sort of let it go. When I came home from work Friday, he said he had a headache but that we would be working on building the loafing shed for my horses this weekend. I was in extreme protest, especially because he isn't supposed to be lifting heavy objects due to his neck/disc complications, but he assured me he had hired help to do the heavy lifting.

Come Saturday, his 'help' was a coworker and my fiancé did 1/2 of the work. I tried several times to gently remind him he wasn't supposed to be lifting or straining (they were setting 16' 4x4's and using an auger, so definitely physically taxing). I tried my best to help and lift, but he kept pushing me out of the way. I think partially because his coworker was there and he didn't want to look...I don't know --- weak?

So, we worked all day in nearly freezing temperatures and didn't even get close to be done so we headed back Sunday to finish. Fiance didn't say he was sore, but I insisted he take some pain relief since I know I sure as heck was sore and I didn't use the auger. We were on our way to set up the shed when he asked me to grab his discharge paperwork from the CT to see if he can take ibuprofen yet. Whaaaat? I look at the paper and he was supposed to limit his physical activity for at least 24 hours after the CT due to the spinal tap they used to insert the dye AND that he wasn't supposed to operate machinery. I was beyond furious. Then he tells me that he had his parents drive him home on Friday because they wouldn't release him to drive. OBVIOUSLY I should have done more homework on a CT. But, he should have been more honest!

His brother and another hired hand were there as I found this out, so I couldn't have that conversation immediately. We worked again ALL day. He was on ladders, he was cutting wood, he was laying steel paneling on the structure.

I was just so upset that he knowingly didn't tell me about his discharge information for the CT. He told me he knew that if he did, I wouldn't agree to him working on the loafing shed this weekend. You're dang right! I am just so upset, because he jeopardized his health even further over a stupid shed. And he's trying to pin it on me like I was the reason he did that and I should be happy he got the shed done.

We didn't even finish until well after dark last night and he works a solid 7 days this week so we won't see each other until next Monday. It just really bothers me. I'm sorry to unload here but I am shaking I am so upset with him. I knew if I talked to him last night before bed, I would unleash my anger on him so I said very little but I did let him know I was upset and disappointed and that if he was going to exclude me from what is happening with his health, then I didn't want to be involved. I told him he needed to find his own caregiver after his surgery and that I wouldn't participate in any additional projects.

He told me I can't be mad, he did this for me, and he didn't lie, he just didn't tell me the whole truth. What kind of ish is that?? Grrrr.