So I need help. I need to find a therapist but it's not that simple for me. I have major trust issues. Every bone in my body right now is screaming Don't do it. You know you can't trust Drs. Every therapist I have been to I have not liked for one reason or another. I had one that made me worse. I went from just having a severe tremor in my right hand to having it in my leg as well. I started cutting while I was seeing her & her general attitude towards the whole thing was it's ok.

For me just going through a list to find someone isn't that simple. When I start looking my depression gets much worse. So I can only handle researching a T for a short period of time before I give up. I told myself after my last T didn't listen to anything I said that I was done & I really hate lying to myself. I always end up regretting it.