Sadley, so so sorry you are suffering with depression. It is like a black cloud that makes every day a struggle according to my friend. I am sorry also your girlfriend could not cope with your depression, and possibly her own, or be there for you as a support person.

There are really two issues, treating depression and finding a lifestyle that suits you. Treating depression to me is a higher priority. It involves options like med therapy, talk therapy, other therapies, support groups, and online support like Psych Central.

I would advocate treating depression first because it affects all the other spheres of your life.