Alone and confused.

I totally get what you are saying.

I really believe this about myself, as well. Wondering if I will ever really let anyone in. I just wrote a new thread titled "friends". I only know relationships based on drama/addiction like my parents were.

Now i basically have shoved everyone out. There is no one left.

Now it's time to start OVER again. i'm sober and now newly medicated. I know things will be better now, as far as, relationships go. It just seems like so much work. I'm literally at ground zero.