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. It's just so sad and hurtful to ourselves, the sheer way we hate ourselves, probably a lot more than other people do, even if they do, which I doubt. We are our own worst enemy but what's the answer, I haven't a clue. I've detested 'me' for 30 plus years and somehow I don't think it's gonna change now. It's a vicious circle, we hate so we eat and we eat 'cos we hate! It's weird because even when I was actually anorexic and in the psych hospital, I KNEW my beloved 'thinness' which a liked so much, was never really mine for keeps. It was only mine until the next bulimic binge, or the next damaging cycle of binge stave purge and on and on. I'm now 57 and I truly thought I'd be over my serious eating disorders by now ~ guess it doesn't work that way. Xxxxxx.
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