Jupi, your life has meaning and purpose. Please do not feel you have no value to anyone, you do. You mean something to all of us here and to those around you. Everyone is so stressed out with their own lives that we often are guilty of not telling others how much we appreciate them in our lives. Just a few words of kindness and deeds of thoughtfulness can turn ones life around. It sounds like that is what you need. There is an old saying, we either accept the things around us, and if we cannot then we change our surroundings. Please find someone to talk to and unload the burdens you are carrying. We really are our brothers keeper and you are important... i shall pray for you blessings