Be glad he has that tolerance and is still there for you after all of the episodes you've had. Has he ever gone to your T with you to speak about the emotional needs/wants you have? Being that the other species doesn't always get what the other needs is the gap you speak of. If you've tried to communicate these needs, you may be better off without him and need to move on for your mental health. A lot of us have low self esteem and think what we have is the best we can get. You need to take care of yourself first and foremost. If you don't love yourself, it's hard for others to do so.....I've recently chased my bf of 4 years away bc he couldn't handle my episodes any longer...it hurts like hell right now, but it may be the best thing that happens to me....