I have a hard time differentiating between what is my true personality vs when the bipolar is affecting my mood/responses. Am I upset bc of my mental state or would I be upset if I didn't have BP affecting my thoughts and feelings? There seems to be a large grey area that I'm having a hard time defining, and I feel it is affecting relationships. It's not believed that the BP can affect me in which I react a certain way rather than how another without BP might do so. Maybe I do have a lot of built up anger that makes me snap. Maybe it is part of the disorder. I have no clue!