thanks omegaland. This is a difficult situation b/c it's not just a routine hospitalization. I'm going in to rapidly go off 1200 mgs of Seroquel (an enormous dose) and get started on Clozaril which interacts with Seroquel. So it's extremely anxiety-provoking because I'm very likely to be very ill for a while. And I'm not doing very well to begin with and haven't been for a very long time. I've been putting this off as long as I could and then delaying until after Christmas. Then my pdoc was off a week and now we're just hanging. It's hard, the hardest wait I've ever had to go IP because in the past IP has been going to make me better and this time IP will make me much worse and then start the better part but I'll probably not be very we when I leave the hospital so there's just not much to look forward to here.