I wonder how much of my emotions are side effects of the meds. I can usually tell from memory before when I wasn't medicated the regular decisions and the bipolar decisions. I tend to be very excitable and dramatic during episodes of mania. Last year I was comotose with depression. That's the first time that's happened. So they ( Dr & husband) put me thru ECT a bunch of times. Even when I was home, I had to go in outpatient for ECT. Brain Fry.
I'm really messed up. Both short term and long term memory. It hasn't come back as promised. Also ECT gave me high blood pressure. I've never had a problem in my whole life.
I also lost 60 lbs and all my muscle tone. I'm almost 6' tall. I didn't need to lose weight.
Now I've gained back fat as a result of my eating to satisfy med cravings. But am too tired to do much exercise.
I do go to the beach for an hour swim a few times a week.