Ouch,
Starting a new job is a major stress factor in anyone's life. It's fear of the unknown. Try to put a positive spin on all of your worries about starting your new job. Don't sell youself so short. What makes you think you will mess something up? You will be great.
I totally understand your fear about "relapsing" into your depression. I had, and still do have those fears from time to time. I still have trouble talking myself down and staying focused during times of crisis, but I know that each time I go through it, I come out OK. I think that makes me stronger and stronger. Depression is so powerful, but I think out inner selves are 1000 times more powerful and you will pull through this.
Good luck with your new job. I will be sending good thoughts yoiur way.
Jen
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