This is just a vent. I am tired,angry,and emotional about people making my life more difficult. I am tired of lazy,unambitious people making excuses while I am trying to hurry up and get my things together. I am tired of people being manipulative. I am tired of all that I have given just for when I want something to be dismissed. I have so much to offer and give so much but all people do is use,use,use and then act like they care. Who the heck are they kidding? They are just self involved idiots. And,it's pushing me. Very far. I am have been trying too hard to get my things together. I overcame and have just wanted to move past things and I will not have this be my life. I am not only tempted to run away and leave it all behind,but it's starting to feel more and more like a real possibility. No one believes me but they don't know. I have been mistreated,betrayed,and abused. I just want some ease and appreciation. I have been feeling so drawn towards self destruction because of the pain. I just don't know how people can be so self involved. I am always thinking of others. I have given money,care,advice,and so on.