I've been without meds for awhile now and I'm having a very hard time. My anxiety is through the roof. I keep trying to calm myself down until I can see my new psychiatrist on February 1st, but I'm having a hard time. I feel like someone is watching me outside my window. I keep making sure the blinds are closed, but I still feel like they aren't closed enough and they can still see me. I am checking the house every night after everyone is asleep to make sure no one is hiding in there. I just have a very bad feeling like something bad is going to happen to me and my family and I hate it. I told my therapist and she told me to go to the ER and tell them that I have been without meds and can't get anymore until February and that they would give me meds to hold me over. I'm just so afraid that they will try to hold me 24 hours. I don't want to be held because I'm not suicidal or homicidal and the last time I went in they held me for five days because I was "crying to raging to laughing." Even though I wasn't suicidal or homicidal they still held me because I was unstable. I don't want that to happen again, but I don't know what to do.