Re: my problems. I could sit and detail every slight (real or imagined) but the truth is that the initial separation that I placed between myself and everyone else at a very young age has made me pretty asocial and mysanthropic. That's the first cause - subconscious though it might have first been. It comes across as rudeness. All the other stuff is pretty standard life issues. There's stuff that hurts me, annoys me, confuses me but it's no worse than many other people. Family members die, kids didn't like me, some paedo makes a move on me, nasty comments, rejections, failures, worries....it's all standard stuff really. The separation does the real damage because it makes me unapproachable and aloof and yet....it feels so much more comfortable than being around people. There's an anxiousness around people that turns to a roar in crowds. Eventually your internal thoughts result in external results and physical symptoms.