Thank you, valley. I wanted to move to a place with more amenities, and less stairs. So I have that need, but I've been feeling like another move might make me psychotic again. I moved at least 10 times since 2004. I hate that it might be mandatory because of what's going on now. I keep thinking my next move will be my last, and then something happens and I have to move again. That's how I've amassed so much clutter.

But I'm scared of these people. That ambush after new years was way over the line. They want me scared and they want me gone. I'm afraid to call the police again because with my history they might decide all I need is another 8 days of being inpatient, and that all of this has been a psychotic fantasy.

If I really am in danger, that's when I should call the police, but they wouldn't get here instantly.