I feel so lonely and alone. I look forward in my life
and see me by myself. I wanted to belong to somewhere, someone, my whole life but I've never figured out how to let people in, I just loved my family and my ex and my children from with in my cave. I sometimes cherish the small times I have contact with friends but I have been roaring in my heart that it hurts. I have a boyfriend. He is nice, good looking, gentle, has enough for his retirement but he is more a friend than someone I can howl at the moon with.