I am not a touchy feely guy normally, not for family or strangers. Like relatives go in for a kiss and I just them the cheek. I don't know the last time I hugged my dad, even when my mom was dying of cancer I had a hard time showing my emotions through physical contact and even verbally, it really made me feel like I was a spectator of the event I couldn't show or do anything that may have been comforting. I am cuddly with my son but he is only a year old so hopefully we have a good bond later. I hate going places like funerals where I am expected to shake a lot of hands, I don't know where their hand has been or of the other hands they have shaken. When I am off my meds I can have some really fun ruminating worries about what I may have contracted.