I am a recovering cutter. After four years of dealing with it, I finally met someone who made me feel good about myself. He was wonderful. I stopped cutting and actually enjoyed life. We were together for 9 months and then he totally freaked out on me.

He got mad when I didn't spend every waking moment with him, and when we finally broke up he started stalking me. I hated him and wanted him out of my life. But now that he's gone and starting college, all of those old feelings are coming back.

I didn't cut for 10 months, and I've cut twice now in the past week. I don't know what to do. It seems like every little thing here is setting me off and making me want to hurt and to bleed. My friend tries to help me, but she can't be here all the time, and the only person I could ever really talk to about this isn't talking to me anymore, so I just don't know what to do.