why can't i fit in anywhere in the 3d world? i can't and never have. i know i fit in here at pc. i've been deaf all of my life. i was raised in the hearing world and taught how to speak and be like a hearing person. near impossible to understand people with my near-total deafness. can't keep friends because i take up too much time for them. i'm deaf and have depression. sure, i could get a cochlear implant, but it's not going to solve the problem. i can make friends easily, but can't keep them because they're all too busy for me. i'm not demanding or clingy. i can live on my own, no problem. i have a husband, no problem. but, friends just can't settle down because i can't fit into their world because i'm deaf and depressed. what sucks is that i was raised to be just like hearing people, only that doesn't work. duh! i could just up and defect over to the deaf culture, but it wouldn't help because i'm oral - a talker. nice idea, huh? if had a deaf kid, i would never raise him/her like that. i would give him/her the deaf culture and speech. i don't know much sign. tried to learn, but my brain wouldn't handle the pace of reading the fingerspelling. gives me bad headaches. really bad headaches. i can lip-read, but only up to a point. it takes an unbelievably huge amounts of concentration to do. i sure don't fit anywhere. here, i'm fine, but it's not a replacement of human contact and interaction. not to say anything bad about doing internet instead of the 3d world. it works perfectly for me. it's just that the 3d world don't work for me. it sucks. jeez, why do i feel like an autistic, anyway?