had a meeting today, with my CCA (community care assistent)
normally these meetings are quite relaxed and kool...... talking about music and films, but today he asked me what my views are towards god and things like that...........................
those who remember my story will know why this question has rattled me......... ..................... those who dont know here is a brief history........
when i was younger i was a little terror. the only thing that kept my sane was the fact that i used to serve in the church, with my brother and an older friend.
i used to get on well with my brother and this older friend, so much that i used to stay over at this older friends house, normal i hear you say ......... but he was living with the vicar.
one night i was staying over when this vicar distroyed my faith in god,............
i told my older friend , and all he said was "i know". i hated him for that, he knew and did nothing. i felt ashamed.
i couldnt tell anyone, as i lived in a small village where everyone knows everyone else, and this vicar was well liked by the village people.
i blanked this for nearly 20 years,
i told my community care assistent that i have no trust in god or anything he does...........
but all day now i have been troubled by this question......................

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