Hello & Welcome, Sleepy1blue.
Depression messes with mind, body, emotions and sense of time.
I strongly suspect you will need
some sort of assistance getting on your feet. From your account it's not going to come from family. Do your circumstances permit you going to a medical doctor?
Please make yourself at home.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.