When I feel emotional, any emotion, I feel like I have to keep it under wraps. I apologise a lot for my emotions.

I worry about people thinking I'm stupid for having too much fun.

Let me set a scene:

There's a middle aged mum, cuddly in size, hair starting to grey and false teeth that don't fit properly. There's a rope swing that reaches out into a river. The scene is set. She approaches the swing and gets on, as she starts to swing she is nervous. What does my tummy look like? Will I have a wardrobe malfunction? Will I fall off?

This situation is not around people, so imagine how I feel when there are people around.

I took my kids to the pool the other day. There was diving boards, a splash pad and a great big water slide. I said to my partner that if there was no one around, I'd be diving off the diving board and going on the slide.

I will look at those links when I have time to myself when the kids go to bed.

Thanks heaps for taking the time to read and answer, it means a lot xo