Hi Ciderguy,

I would be very afraid of that too, the losing of time. Do you think it may be something like DID? I don't know much about that, but when the main identity can't handle a situation, another person comes to the fore to deal with consciousness.

Maybe you could use an app to sign in on your phone once an hour, then when you dissociate and return you could see how much time you lost. There are a lot of good alarm apps to help you remember.

I really envy that place of safety you've have been experiencing. It sounds wonderful to me.

Do you think if you weren't so isolated, maybe you'd have a firmer grasp of reality? Are there any places you could go to socialize, like church groups or other social centers? I know how bad isolation can be because I isolate myself entirely, except for the occasional texts from a relative and sometimes my one last friend. Lately, under this stress, I've been feeling closer to losing what little sanity I have left.

If there were some way to get prosthetic legs, could you eventually drive again? If you'd rather I didn't suggest things like that, please just tell me to stop.

I'm not sure still about the types of hallucinations you're having and delusions. I wonder if your doctor diagnosed schizoaffective because you also have depression? They seem to like to diagnose schizoaffective these days, I'm not sure why.

I hope the higher dose of Seroquel will help. Did you tell your doctor about losing time yet? Maybe they'd have suggestions to help. The only times I ever lost time was when I was young and a binge drinker, but then I'd just black out and couldn't remember anything past a certain point.