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Originally Posted by Webgoji
You know, I think it might not be a bad idea for you guys to go to some family counseling. It sounds like your mother is trying hard to balance her thinking with what she knows to be right, to love and support you, with whatever her feelings are, maybe some homophobia or even just confusion leading to lashing out. A family counselor can certainly help you guys work through it together and help her rectify her feelings.
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She wouldn't go. She feels that she is capable of no wrong, and this has been the case for my entire time growing up. She's always right, no matter how horrible the things are she does. In her mind, she is perfect. She would never, ever go to a counselor with me...... especially not over a "morally" laden issue like this. No way in hell. That really would be something though, if she agreed to that.
To be honest, I feel like I have to choose between this and her. It's so sad. I had a crush on my friend, and I thought about him every single day. I couldn't help it. If I ever acted on that, I feel like she wouldn't even want to speak with me. I could be wrong, but I just don't believe her. I just don't trust her. She's given me so many reasons to not trust her. I just don't know how I'm going to live without her. I will miss her so much. I can't imagine a life without her. I can't imagine calling her and calling her and having her not answer the phone. I can't imagine getting the cold shoulder on holidays. I can't imagine the pain of having a family not speaking to me over this.