Alright girl. . .look here. Stop. . .think about what's REAL, what's RIGHT NOW, and what's PAST. You said in your other post. . .

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I have been with this T for 3 years and I trust him more than I have ever trusted anyone in my entire life. I hate it when he goes on vacation. (Last session I told him " You can't go away on vacation, You just can't. I hate it hate it hate it." And he looked at me with those blue eyes and softly said "I know, I know that's how you feel... but hey, you'll be okay. You've been okay before." (when he went away).
I cannot bear the thought of ever ending therapy, seriously. I just cannot even go there. I have never ever had a relationship like the one I have with him; it has opened up so many windows for me. I have started treating myself with some of the kindness and love he has shown and taught me. I have started believing in humanity again.

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Now. . .does this sound like someone who is going to "dump" you for no reason? If he is investing his time and energy to love you and show you kindness, why would he dump you? Do you think someone who has done what he's done is even capable of doing what you fear?

I know you're hurting right now. I know you feel left and abandoned and I also know that YOU KNOW you're projecting your feelings onto your current T. I think you really know he isn't going to bail on you, but worrying that he will, thinking about gives you a sense of preparing for it in some way, and not being sprung with a surprise like last time.

Think carefully. . .very carefully. Make a list of things you KNOW and things you feel. See if they add up (I'll bet you $5 they dont!) Evaluate the sitaution.