of surviving.

of just existing. not living.

of coping and trying to cope.

of sticking around for people who don't give a **** about me deep down.

of having headaches and poor sleep despite my efforts to become healthy.

of staying clean/sober.

of having no one to talk to when i'm lonely.

of being lonely.

of trying with all my might to get somewhere, and getting nowhere.

of not having love or anyone to really be there for me.

of arguing.

of struggle.

of being a 'good girl'.

of being a girl.

of not enjoying anything anymore.

oh, and did i say i'm tired of existing.

(sorry, hard night.)