The state of Oregon has legalized physician-assisted suicide, a few others I believe. And, the Netherlands. There is a socio-political shift occurring and I believe it will become a more wide-spread option for a dignified and humane end of life experience.
We euthanize terminally ill animals and call that humane treatment, yet we deny humans the same right. Shameful.
Can you seek some support with therapist that specializes in end-of-life issues?