Finding out what to do with therapy won't be that hard. Trying out s new T while still having sessions with my T would be a good idea. Where my current T works, works about8 more T's. So my T might know who of them could be a match with me.

The hardest will be to not see my T for at least 4 months.
I find it hard to tell my T my feelings of envy and my feelings about her leaving. Telling her that I sometimes get jealous on her other clients and that I want to be her favorite, that was hard for me. I'm so afraid she'll think I'm too dependent on her. I'm not. Maybe a little bit. I can get through the week without feeling the need to contact her and such.
Telling her about feelings that have to do with her, it makes me feel...vulnerable, I think.

There's also some anxiety. Anxiety about having to continue therapy without her. She's the only T who has been able to help me. I'm afraid whatever T I'll get, that he or she will suck. My T understands me and my feelings. Even when I was only a few weeks in therapy with her. I like her. She says good/useful/smart things.
How can any T come even close to how good my T is?