I just remembered something. A few sessions ago we were talking about therapy and her. She asked if I could be without her (something like that). I said something like: ''I can be without you, but when therapy ends, when I don't need therapy anymore. But now, when I still need therapy, I need you. I can live without you. But I rather have you as a T. If I would need a new T, it can be a really long time until I find a good one. You have been the only T that has been able to help me. Previous T's didn't know what to do with me and some even were bad for me.''

This was somewhere in December. She already knew she would have to leave in a few months.