My manias have been extrememly severe but few and far between. Because of this, I have become painfully self-aware and read into evertything that slightly resembles hypo-mania. At first I stop sleeping so much until eventually I find myself still dancing to music off my computer at 5AM. I become short and evenutually angry with my family. I start hallucinating (as long as I still am in touch with realility I can recognize them as hallucinations). I start experiencing delusions and paranoia. It is when I cannot tell reality from delusion that I become most concerened. That is where my large support team comes in. There is usually at least one person I can comfortably bounce my thoughts and ideas off of. I do spend noticably more money (sometimes substantially more money). My husband says I get "crazy eyes." I also isolate and if it's really bad I get pressured speech.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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