Hi all,

I've had bouts of depression a few times now in my life. Most seem to occur when a series of events make me sad, bring out insecurities around self-worth, etc.

My most recent one has lasted for the past 10 days and have felt very absent with my two young children (6 months and 2.5 years). But last night I came home and was feeling great. I felt I figured out some of our problems (won't get into them) but was there for my kids, didn't feel like a chore, etc.

But then I woke up this AM and although it wasn't as bad as other mornings, it wasn't as good as I expected based on the night I had. Similarly at work, my mind then drifts off and I start getting down on myself, anxious, legs shaking, etc.

Here are my questions:
1 - I found I was at my worst when going back to the Zoloft. I had been 50mg every 4 to 5 days as I was doing fine for a long time. When I felt my depression come back I started taking every day. But was worse. So I laid off for 3 days and like I said had a good day last night. I wonder if I am mis-diagnosing myself and the Zoloft is increasing my anxiety?

2 - Is it normal during depression recovery to still have some up & downs that feel like you are getting back to depressed mode? I seem to remember this the last time too but it's been a while.

Thanks!