Hi Debbie,
When I read your post I had so much stong feelings I had to put a hold off answering incase I got offensive. I get angry about some of the stuff that therapists get away with.
I think you shouldnt have to teach your T to go deep, a T should welcome your interest and courage to go deep and should support you all the way, and be with you to reflect and understand how important these things are, and also have her own useful input. I think its great you are ready and willing to go deep, I'm afraid for you that that really good impulse can be lost or diluted in the hands of someone who doesnt really understand. I dont think for a minute you are asking too much, go for your heart, go for someone deep and able to really hold you on your journey of exploration, you deserve it and need it.

I have such strong feelings because I had such a destructive experience in therapy, I loved her with a passion, but it was dessolving the good that was in me. Its a long story, too long for here and now. I am diagnosed schiziod, and that also explains why I am very sensitive, but I wouldnt want to lose my sensitivity, what I want to lose is my tendency to abdicate my own truth and let someone elses, particularly hers take over.

just to let you know, if you are interested, me and friend who also ids with this have been having a study group, , We read the professional literature, gain understanding and share our experiences, its warm and deep and I usually feel strongr after it. we would love to have someone else join us, (would need to be email etc skype?).

Hope it all went well for you, keep looking till you get what you need, I'd say. .

riverx :